The power of silence ..

This the latest of the poems I wrote. Its about the musings of a gal about her latest crush :)

I see him ...
And I ponder over the hundred thoughts I have of him-
He sees me too ..
I wonder , if he thinks about me, as much as I do .
I pause , the very moment I catch a glimpse of him
And my eyes in ecstasy , glimmer ,all for him,I feel-
I hesitate , even to smile, which is so unlike me -
No doubt, his magic works so well on me .
I have been crazy all the while -
But somehow, seeing him, I forget all my style -
If only silence can do all these and more ..
I stupor, going ahead , what all is in store ! :)

Cheers,
Rani :)

Wayward Lover

This poem is an attempt to put forth the cognitions of a wayward lover , who is juggling between love ,responsilities and expectations . Finding no solace admist so many things, the lover just prays to God for a resolute mind . Read more to understand it better from the eyes of the wayward lover.Pure work of fiction, no strings attached.

I lose my mind when I cant be in touch with you ..
Time and again I come up with ideas anew..
Still means to reach you are so very few
How do I make you understand my point of view ?

Not finding you around is making me go blind
I find no answers in my cluttered mind..
How will I know,if this is Love?
Give me more signs, Oh my Lord above -

I remember your words, Baby, dont give up on me -
Just musings about you,everything else I oversee -
I dont even know ,When was I last esprit?
Why you had to leave me and fly overseas ?

Is this Love ?
Show me some signs, to talk of-
How will I know, if this is love?
Make me realize, oh my Lord, whom I am proud of !

I dont understand the pain I feel-
I dont even know if this wound would ever heal ?
Why am I , even now, charmed by your sex appeal-
Why cant you just be by my side,and our lips seal-
Why this has to be a complex deal ?

Is this Love?
How will I know, if this is love ?
Just make me resolute ,oh my Lord !
I will thank you each day ,in accord !

Musical Remedy

After a long ten day break from gymming , While I took the thread mill and started running , I realized what I have been missing all these while. Awesome Music being played on the background and I am running ... Its just me ..no restrictions, no expectations , nothing to stop me back... all the negative thoughts, hindrances ,frustrations just pouring down as sweat . I feel I am living the moment.. hear my heart beat ... and music at the background ... nothing else ...

I remember a song , to describe this situation aptly ..Its from a band GreenDay , the song is called Boulevard of broken dreams .. I walk a lonely road , the only one that i have ever known.. I walk alone .. I walk alone.....

Breaking all these thoughts ,the 20 minutes timer expires and I am done with my workout feeling lighter than never before , ready to tackle the battlefield ...

I just laugh and resume my work ...

:) :) :) :)

A very small event but it made a big impact on me !! Just like any other monotonous day at work , work piling up and tasks seem to move too slowly. Unexpected results bringing unneeded focus and questions made on your efforts spent !! I get up from my place to take a stroll, low in spirits like never before .Then, there I see a familiar face making entry through the ODC door ! He was talking over phone !! He looked at me and gave a big SMILE :) Thats all the magic he did...He has always been special to me .. .. My heart jumped in joy and I had forgotten all the worries and hurdles ... Our familiriaty grew only becuase of the smiles we exchanged. Never had we spoken to each other !!But never had we missed a chance to smile at each other when we crossed paths . :) I was soooooooooo happy , I took a stroll outside and work resumed !! :) :) Realised once again - " it takes 43 muscles to frown but only 22 muscles to smile " and thus was I able to SMILE my way out, in anticipation of more SMILES to bring magic into life ;) ;) :)

memory lane

I call this poem which I wrote some days back as -'memory lane' . Here it goes....

I dont give you the right to hurt me
When I am no-one to you
Why should I be hurt by the things you do
For I know I have been insane
In love for you
Jump out of my memory lane
But you never understood
What you meant to me .

Life's been harsh on me
Same like the way you treated me
It was my fault for sure
For you were always obscure
Jump out of my memory lane
I can no longer bear the pain
But you never understood
How much you meant to me.

Sometimes I feel misunderstood
For I did all what I could
I am trying... but still feel the pain
Please jump out of my memory lane
Let my efforts not go in vain
Let me start living again
Because you never understood
How much your love mattered to me .

blissed !!

thoughts flow as words...and here is the poem which i wrote down last night .....

On the porch I sat after a long tiring day
Trying to hear what my heart had to say ..
Up above the clear night sky over me
I could see a star twinkling at me .
The chilly breeze made my nose numb-
The thought of 'him' , made my heart jump
Wish we could hold hand-in-hand..
With dreams to take off to the fantasy land.
The skyline twinkled with a stary mile ..
The blissful gusto made me smile..
The moment was made special by the moon..
How I wished I could meet 'him' soon -

.......

I managed to write a poem three days back... I don know what was the motivation behind this or should I call it demotivation ... Maybe I can put it out as imaginary "me" .. not sure ... Anyways , I am happy I managed to write something after ages ...its still crude ... but still OK to start back my passion for writing ...

Here it goes ...

Someday when you have no missed calls to see -
no unread messages , waiting for you in your inbox ..
You realise - how much you miss me !!

If I was you , I would never ever
Kept you waiting for me ...
All my time would be yours ..
All my priorities would be you ...
Maybe thats why --
You never reliased -
how much I loved you..

And some today on a future day
You feel the pain
when things are not the same
between you n me....
A tear rolls down ..
and you realise ..
How much you are missing me today !!

Time and again ..
you had chance ..
To love me back .. .
but you were busy filling the sack ...
with all money and all wealth ..
in midst of all this I lost my health ...
time changed , so did I
the world crumpled down for me
lost me for ever ,you never even know how....
and you are realizing it only now .

~Rani :)